After yesterday’s bombshell, I could have used some really good news, like Patty showing up early.
Unfortunately, no such luck. But she’s planning on being here by 1pm. Twelve hours and counting, I just hope I can do more than intermittent sleep tonight.
I’ve spent too much time thinking today. Do I want to start with genetic relatives who had nothing to do with me for 20 years? Do I give them 20 years of cold shoulder like they gave me? I could guilt-trip them by blaming their (in)actions for “making me a lesbian.” Would that backfire and give them a self-justification for their (in)actions?
Is being sexually attracted and sexually involved with only one woman sufficient to make me a lesbian? Especially if we’re past eight months together? Does it make me something else, like asexual? And what is it with all these labels anyway? Why should I have to fit someone else’s preconceived notions of how everyone should behave?
How long can Patty and I go without someone saying something, like little Sis the Tattler? She thinks it’s like slumber parties when Patty stays over for now, what is she going to think when it’s everyday? Worse, what is she going to say to others? Should have gotten bunk beds like in a dorm to help with the pretense?
Will I keep enough control to wait to kiss her until we’re safely in the house? This is probably the biggest question, and the most important, and the only that gets answered in 12 hours.
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